It's in my blood. Yes in my blood

Hello people! yeah I'm back by public demand... Hehehe yes I guess I'm the winner of bad blogger award ( or at least nominated for that category) so I would like to thanks to... my crazy exams, my try out schedule because without you guys there's no chance I could got this award ( hahaha... still got that Oscar fever ) Okay! I'll stop jocking around... hehehe

Soooo yesterday, 6th March is my sister birthday! Kak Cheche! Happy birthday!!! tsk, you knew already that you, papa and kak Nini means the world to me , so there's nothing that can make happy than seeing you happy, this is not just talking, I really mean it. If I have a singing skill I will singing this song for you, but since my voice is like a quacking duck so I will take some words from the song for you, it's a song by Lee Ann Womack, this is my wishes for you, here it goes :

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder. You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger. May you never take one single breath for granted. God forbid love ever leave you empty handed. I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean. Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens. Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance. Never settle for the path of least resistance. Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking. Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making. Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter. When you come close to selling out reconsider.Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance . I hope you dance.

So this post is dedicated for my sister, and I'll tell her a glimpse of her you might want to know ( because it seems that some of you always curious about my sisters) so I'll try to describe her as good as I can. Her full name is Ferani Taskia Kirana I call her kak Cheche. she's the middle child in my family, and I believe talent is her middle name, oh my! she's full of talent ( yeah I envy her) sometimes is so hard for me to catching her up, I have to run fast or I'll be far behind. Her drawing skill is mad, her photography skill is mad, not forget to mention her editing skill ( she's already working in Axioo Photography (one of the best wedding photography in my country) as photo editor even before she graduate. She go abroad by herself, no need any money from my daddy, and not just that she also flew to other town to be a judge for national photography competition along with marvelous maestro photographer Arbain Rambey and she's doing all that when she's still 20 years old. Ugh.

She's also my teacher ( no she might not the one who take my pictures, my other sister who took it, I'll tell about her in some other time, and when she give me the permission, hehehe) but she's the one who thought me about photography, drawing and everything. Yes she's all that, but for me the best part of her is that she loves me, I know she did, she show it in her own way. She might never say it because I know she's not a type that can saying I love you out loud. But it's love, you don't have to say it. Because I can feel it alright. So I hope you can feel that I love you too kak! *a thousand wet kisses! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! stay cool!

So this is her : ( and oh, yes two sister is so different just like day and night, one is so warm and cheerful and the other one is so quite and cold, and me? I'm mixed up. hehehe so you might guess which sister kak Cheche is, the cold or the warm one?

and this is some of her hand drawings back in college, too bad she's not drawing anymore...

I know you all going to say... whaaat no outfit post??! after one month?! okay okay.. lets calm down and take a deep deep breath. There's nothing to be worry about, because I will post an outfit today! yeeeaaayy meee!!!! hehehehe

Take a look at my post title above, I'll tell you the reason behind that title. Many people asked me, where do I got my fashion skill ( still wondering thou, what fashion skill??! hehehe) and why I'm in love with fashion in my very young age? well in poetic way I'll say love have no age limit, but in serious matter I'll say : It's in my blood, yes in my blood. I don't know how and why, I just do.

So it's a benefit from having two older sisters I have so many fashion magazine to read, and they fashion spread are mad! insane! so classy, beautiful and everything. I love every single page of it, always wondering how to make such a beautiful piece of art, ah I mean clothes. I almost think there's some magic tricks behind it. So many couture playing in every single page of it, clothes that I can only imagine about. There so many piece that captivated me, but there is one piece of couture that I'm drolling over, and just like want to tease me it keep showing out in many magazine that I read, yes that one piece of couture ( I don't even know what it's called , cape? cropped blazer? what?) I don't even bother to look the price ( yeah you all know it will say : price under request) which means it might be millions! I don't even bother to ask my dad, he will only laugh. I bet he will.

But something are just meant to be my friend, so one day my sister come home and she show me this clothes catalog ( I love clothes catalog) and I'm going gaga! it's that cape catalog!!! yes exactly the one! not look like, not inspired by. it's the one! along with other collection. But what a bad luck, no price is written. I asked my sister is she might know how much that collection is, and her answer is a thunder in the middle of the day. A THUNDER! A BIG ONE! she said "I'm not sure, sure it's expensive, I'll ask kak Ines if you so curious" kak Ines is one of my cousin her real name is Shahnaz Soraya but I call her kak Ines she's in fashion design major, I heard that she also won the best jury in her final collection graduation from Esmod. cool right? . so I asked again "how kak Ines knows about the price?" and another thunder strikes a BIGGER ONE! "because she made it, it's her brand" I'm faint.

I'm begging my sister to call kak Ines. I want it sooooo freakin baaaad!!! I have to wear it! I need to see it! my skin need to touch it! or at least smell it. Seriously. So over the phone I asked kak Ines, and oh well. take a deep breath fellas. She said yes!!! that cape and other collection!!! see something are just meant to be. Just like me and that cape. we are made for each other.

Like that's not even enough, when I get the clothes it's also with the accessories, kak Ines is collaborated with G.H.O.S.T to make accessories for her collection. It's crazy right? ( I always in loooove with G.H.O.S.T !! always!) so now I can check one of my dream list. it's said : "wearing futuristic couture" check! hehehe. So you all might seen this piece in many high fashion magazine, and now I wearing it! cool right? ahh couture...

after some thinking, I made a conclusion why I love fashion? with me, kak Ines and other family member that I know also have big love for fashion. I maybe can say, It's in my blood. Yes in my blood. Thank you kak Ines, you just made one of my dream come true! you got yourself a thousand wet kisses too! Hehehehe.

so ready guys?!!

all clothes are Nez

all accessories are G.H.O.S.T

boots are from ZARA

I'm the luckiest kid in town or what? It's night already, I have to go to bed, see you next month, err just kidding! I mean next post! hehehe. Night all! kiss kiss!

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not my forte

It's Saturday already! Yeeeaah! don't you all love Saturday? I bet you do. For me, Saturday just like December you just can't wait it to come and feel so sad when it's over. So what you usually do on your weekend? well most of my Saturday is spent with my family, dinner in some place nice, watching movies or just spent it at home preparing home made popcorn and do some dvd marathon, mostly old movies, my daddy strictly against pirate DVD's and new dvd movies is not really cheap, so we ended up with the same old movies, I'm not complain thou. Hahaha... it's funny how I can complete sentence right before the actor saying it, it's actually fun and finally it's become our game.

For me Saturday is a 'ME' day, I can do almost anything I want. When the weather is friendly ( which is kinda rare lately? do you all realize how the weather is so unpredictable lately? arrghh.. it's almost like freackin hot and suddenly raining like crazy, tsk tsk tsk) back to the topic, hehehe when the weather is friendly I just love to get my books and read it outside,
(I'm so lucky, I lives in place where theres still so many green grass ) just when the light is not so bright but really warm and wind breeze playing with my hair. There's no other activities that more fun than reading good books outside, lay yourself on the green grass. Listen to a soft song, ( Joshua Radin song it's the best, it's so easy and sweet and warming...) t feels so, I don't know the best way to decribe it. Peace, yes I feel so peace.

Last week when I prepared myself for reading outside, my sister said "hey why don't we make that as a photoshoot?" brilliant idea I must say, why it's never cross my mind before? hmmm... So I grab my drink bottle, couple of books an I said let roll! this is I must say the easiest photoshoot ever! all I have to do is read and falling asleep just like I used to. Hahaha. So don't judge me by the book that I read, hahaha I'm a very love peace person, wars, debate and everything alike is not my forte, it's really not. But ... but if you try to pick a quarrel with me, you better think think twice, because you already know I am prepared, I read the book remember? hahaha .. no just kidding...

I give you this, because I know you all missing my icey looks, right? hehehe

hahaha just kidding, an icey face won't suite in this happy day

For whoever have been called as shopaholic, this glass is must have! so they know the real reason why we love to shop, hehehe

my new toy!!! yaaayy!!!

got this amazing shoes from spotlight and in love in an instant! it's hand drawing! I don't know why I always have thing for something that I know it's handmade, it's so amazing knowing someone is taking extra care for it. love love love! and got another one and lemme tell you it's soo pretty too! gonna show you in my next post! it's so cute!

What I wear :
vest : old navy
floral shirt : zara kids
belt : zara kids
pants : tailor made
socks : zara kids
shoes : spotlight

psstt I got a very great news! but probably gonna share it in my next post! it's big!!! ( no not giveaway hehehe) I hope you as thrilled as I am when you got the news!! *kisses and hugs!!!!
and oh Happy Saturday!!!

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first hello in 2011!!

Hello people!!! yes I'm back, yes finally I updating this abandoned, neglected blog, but before screaming HAPPY NEW YEAR to you all, I think it's the right thing to do for me to say I'm so sorry for my very late update, my laziness you will forgive me right? pleaaaseeeeee... (Sad puppy eyes) yes I got all your angry notes, the soft one, the angry one and even the fury one. I accepted it all and from deepest of my heart I’m apologize to you all, I know there’s no excuse that good enough to tell you and all I can say is that I’ve been pretty busy lately, school thing, family vacation, new year eve, my birthday, ups! Did I just say it? Yes!! New Year eve is also my birthday!!! I’m 12 now!!!! And you know is the right thing to forgive a birthday girl, hehehe just got some cool prizes from my birthday and will show you in my next post! :D

Okay now it’s the time! HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!! Wish you a very good luck through all this year! *cheers!! Ough 2010, there’s so many thing happens to me in 2010, great thing mostly, and I just can’t believe it, it’s almost 3 years since I’m first blogging! Maybe it’s because I’m 12 now I’ve become wiser and many new thought struck me. Who would even guess that my little joy to playing with clothes and with this little blog of mine would bring me so many great opportunity, great experience and so many new friends! Never ever cross my mind, not even a bit. Something I just can’t thanks enough and all my thanks go to you, my wonderful reader. *kiss kiss!

Hmm just like every other year making resolution is not something I'm good at, the truth is resolution is like a promises, and I don't like making promises. But for this year I will do a little resolution not really resolution but something like that. I will talk some pieces that left behind in 2010.

1. Something that have been bother my mind lately, got many letter about it and I know I must do something about it, some of you maybe realize I don't really reply comment like I used to do, and I know that is something wrong, I've got this email who says to comment is like a "Hi" and like every other Hi, you must say "hi' back, actually I know that, but it's not something easy to do, the problem is always been time, theres never enough time for me, so many things to do and so little time, it's frustrating. So I don't make any promise or something, but I promise I'll do my best, from now on, I'll try to say hi back to you.

2. about my lack of post, I know right? hahaha. Just so you know I also mad at myself. But seriously making a new post is not as easy as it looks ( well it's for me thou..) I mostly find myself exhausted after school and so many other course, and that keep making me postpone my photoshoot and same old excuses I know, but time! I always dealling with lack of times, ough how I wish I have all the time in the world! So for this new year wish I found some new way for my time management, wish me luck will you? :)

3. For some of you who read my formspring, all I want to say is, thank you! it's been wonderful, I always love to answer funny question, serious question or any question! but for my birthday gift, whoever you are, would you promise me to do this, for me? STOP ASKING ABOUT MY MOM, for God sake it's private, there I say it. Yes I don't live with my mom, it's my choice and yes she's a live, so if you smart you might know why. And yes, of course I love her, for it's worth she's my mother, she brought me into this world and I'm not somekind of ungrateful child. So please it's hurts enough knowing not like my other friends who when they come home there will be a mother who waiting and make a home cook dinner, while I always have a dinner outside just with my dad ( my sisters is live on their own apartment, so it's just me and my dad ) sometimes it's fun, but you know. not always fun. I do miss homemade dinner, lunch, breakfast. My dad always try to cooked for me, but it weird when me and my friends open our lunch box and saying "my dad my dad made this for me.." instead of saying "my mom made this.." My dad is trying so hard to makes me happy, I couldn't thank enough to God for giving me the best father someone could have but everytime I read that kind of question it always bring the worst in me, I become moody and everything, so please just don't. It's hard already without someone rubbing it to my face all the time.

4. Smile in my photos, hahahaha people said it, I always have an icey face in my pictures, want to know the reason why? it's the clothes! seriously everytime I put on a dress I instantly feel how I'm suppose to pose, capture the soul of the clothes and mostly it's icey and the second reason is my big teeth!!! I have this super huge teeth! hahaha and I'm too shy to show it to you, but if you insist, well okay, check out my pictures! :D

I guess that's all So once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR! wish you all the super best!!!

so here's my many big teeth ehm I mean pictures to share... hehehe

hat : gaudi
jacket : it's an old jacket of my and I cut the brand tag hahaha
shirt : gymboree
white pants : zara kids
socks : gap
shoes : Yongki ( bought in on sale! only 5 dollar! ) :D

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what inside my bag

Hello guys! How are you? Hope you doing okay! Are you missing me already? Hehehe , I hope you do. Nope today you will not find me in any fashion shoots, but I'll do something else. Just like ten billion people out there, curiosity is in my blood. It’s in our blood. I don't know why, but don't we all love to take a peek in someone’s secret? I don't know it's just me or you do too, when I'm in my car and when the red is light, and there's another car who stops right beside my car, and in that car there is this boy who just look into the windows, looking so sad I always wonder and questioning, what in his mind? What is he thinks about? What makes him so sad? Curiosity...curiosity... is that happen to you too? Or when I saw this cute little cat in the corner of the road, soaked up in the rain always curious is he or she cold? Is she/he still having mom to come home to? Is someone out there are crying and running in the rain trying to find her/him? Again curiosity...

Hehehe based on number of question in my formspring I kinda know that there's so many of my you who have interest or have some curiosity in my private life, for some question I do answer it, but so sorry for some question that in my opinion quite too private and over the line, so sorry you won't get any answer for me. My lips are sealed. hehehe. But since makes you happy is something I love to do, I would love to share this for you, the most private thing a person can have( Nooo..... I won't read my diary for you, not in a million years! hehehe. ) Then again you'll be bored to death if I do so, my diary is only full of my daily craps, you will fall a sleep just when I read the opening hahahaha .... So I will share something that more fun to see, maybe with this you'll get more hint of what kind of person I am, get to know me a little better, make you less curious. hehehe.

Like I said in my previous post, I've got daddy who always been an adventurous man, and as his travelers mate I have to be prepare every time, I learn to pack my own bag, learn to prepare my own thing. Make sure I won't curse myself when I get where we head, so whenever we go, this is some that I bring with me, some stuff that I cannot live without. Hehehe.

I present you
My travelers bag!

what is inside? tadaaaaaa.......hehehe

Wait, of course my sweet travel suitcase won't travels alone, he's got this cute furry pink bag as a company ( don't ask me why I have so many pink stuff in my suitcase, that is what happening when you asked your too girlie sister bought stuff for you... sigh... hehehehe, but I must admit it's quite cute)

this cutie furry bag is for my goldie, my sony vaio p series ( you probably asked the same question like a hundred friends of mine, why you picked the gold one? because it's rare that's why hehehe...)

here's all the full crew... minus my camera ( I used it to take this pictures )
here's the list :

1. tissue

2. Hello kitty mask ( you know how air condition lately...)
3. bodyshop comb
4. peppermint candy
5. harmonica
6. Lula magazines ( but it's change depends on what book or magazine I currently read )
7. note books ( always, always bought this, you never know when idea strucks! )
8. cute pens, hehehe
9 chocolate candy, for the sake of my sweet tooths ;P
10 sony vaio
11. hello kitty wallet ( next time I'll show you what's inside :) )
12. another mint candy
13. bodyshop watermelon lip balm
14 my glasses!!
15 ipod ( with tokidoki cover isn't it drop dead cute?!!)
16. my ipod mates sennheiser px 200 -II,seriously what is good music wthout good headphones?
17. white onyx blackberry
18. psp go
19. mpio sony disney ( you see I can't live without music, so this is for urgent in case my ipod battery is dead )
20. tamagochi!
21. nintendo dsi
22. psp
23. game boy!

it's a wrap guys!! hehehe

hehehe now you know that I'm a truly devoted gamers! probably the only thing that blocked me from being 100% nerd is the fact that I don't like math, other than that I'm totally nerd. hehehe...

Who want's to be cool when you can be nerd?

~haley

Video games are bad for you? That's what they said about Rock n Roll

~Shigeru Miyamoto

this is my best travels mate! with this I probably gonna say :

A life? Cool! Where can I download one of those?

Hahaha found that words when I'm browsing around, and it's hillarious! hehehehe....

BIG NOTE! So now, that you already saw mine, now it's your turn! let me see what's inside your bag! comeee onnn.... lemme know when you post what's inside your bag okay! I would love to see! Come on I dare you... hehehehe

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