Mix it up!

Ok I'm officially running out of excuses, I was thinking to say that I've been abducted by aliens for two months and reality strikes! I've already used that one!  tsk such a bad bad blogger! So what happen in two months? Let's try to catch up! hmm since the last post I've made was on November, so that means I haven't say Merry Christmas, Happy new year and Happy Lunar year too! so in this super late post let me say this Merry Christmas guys! and Happy new year too and Happy Lunar year! and now it's your turn to say happy birthday to me! hehehe yes I just turn 13 this year! how time flies right? I was 9 when I'm starting this blog and now I'm 13! But other than age there's nothing else changing I guess, still the same old me ( ouugh! Except I'm getting better at school! Seriously! My teacher said to my dad that I was the living proof of someone who have the will to try and never give up until I satisfied - ehem, of course in good way ) so I started this new year with super big smile, got so many awesome gift for my birthday too! So how's your new year starts ? I wish you all have sweet start too, because I do believe your first mood of the year will set the base for you to go through all the year. But if something bad or thing that not nice happen, don't  worry, just chin up! Clear your mind from the bad thoughts, take a deep breath and smile! And believe in yourself that you're doing just fine, it works, I swear it works! 

So lets start about this post, I was thinking to make this kind of post since long long time ago. When people asked what top must have item in your wardrobe, I will answer with all my heart without hesitation, a NICE JEANS my friend, a nice jeans. Seriously everyone need  at least one good pair of jeans, that look goods on everything else in your wardrobe. Well, it's not easy to find though, it's like searching for soulmate.  But when you get one, it's the best thing!  This is may hard to believe, but I'm not an impulsive buyer, I will only buy something that I think looks perfect on me, no not just good but perfect so then there's no chance I'll be looking some clothes on my closet and said "how on earth? what  was I thinking when I bought this Arrgh ?! " like my sister did.  When you found one, remember to take good care of it. I might be lucky that I have found many of soul mates in pants, but even though I have many but trust me, I remember every each of them. Every time it goes out of dry clean or laundry I'll check it myself.  I also always put my jeans based on colors ( yeah me and my OCD ) it's easier to dress up when everything was put in order, and beside I get so anxious and somehow I feel so guilty if it's not put in the right way.

The fun thing about jeans is that you can mix it any way you want, it goes well with everything. Most of people wear classic color denim of jeans, but not me, well one of my weakness is jeans in color, I collect almost every color, red to green, blue to yellow, man I just can't seem to get enough of them. Of course I have it in classic color, but trust me colorfull jeans is so much fun, I love to mixing it up with everything. When I found out that not many people have the guts to wear jeans in color it keeps me wondering why. I'll show you how fun it is. So here's the post of how I mix it up, ( actually was planning to make only four set or so, but it was too much fun I cannot stop and I ended with this many set and it was stop because my sister who took the picture already begging for me to stop, hehehe sorry sis! ) Let me just warn you< I'm going to break my own record of showing sooo many pictures, hehehe so are you ready to roll?! I know you are!!

glasses : prada,
shirt : burberry ,
 watch : marc jacobs
black and white outerwear : little nuh
pants : zara kids

outerwear : little nuh,
headphone : sennheiser,
neon shirt : a super cute gift from I.K.Y.K  ,
bag : belkin

black jacket : top shop,
 sweater : ballet cats
plaid shirt : zara,
 red pants : sara
bag : marc by marc jacobs




shirt : little nuh,
belt : f21,
watch : paul frank,
bag : LV




outerwear, shirt, bag , hat : zara,
pants : from Thailand,
watch : jeremy scott for swatch







stripe shirt : muji,
pink pants : zara,
 bag : kate spade




white blazer : little nuh
shirt : burberry
necklace : Ellan bijoux 
bag : kate spade




coat, shirt  : muji,
pants : zara,
watch : marc jacobs
bag : kate spade




headphone : urbanears,
shirt : smith
pants : zara







hat : a gift
shirt : burberry
pants : zara
bag : coach




headphone : aerial
shirt : balletcats.




shirt :







shirt : unbranded,
bag : anya hindmarch



jacket : smiths
shirt and pants : zara
watch : levis
bag : charles and keith





yellow jacket : amaterasu
shirt : the balletcats



shirt : art marine
pants : zara
bag anya hind march




outerwear : amaterasu
shirt : GAP
pants : zara
bag : lanvin

outerwear : amaterasu
flower shirt : promod
pants : zara




all zara, except hat



watch : levis, all zara



white cape  another pretty gift from  I.K.Y.K 



plaid shirt : the browns,
bag : kate spade
watch : marc jacobs
hat, sweater, pants : zara



read coat : stradivarius
pants : mango
plaid shirt (inside) : amaterasu

Fiuuuh what a long post right? Well I really hope you got yourself some inspiration from it. I'm having so much fun while mixing it up, I can go on and on and on, you should try too! 

Ought lets come to more serious matter, at first I was hesitate to write this, but this is bugging for weeks. My sister told me to stay the hell out of it, she said if he ain't  bark at you well you don't have to bite. But I can't help it and just be quiet about it. So one day one of my friend texted me and she said, do you already read this? (and then she send me a link) and she told me that I have to open it, because it super funny and she also guarantee that I will crying because of laughing, so yeah I click the link and I expected some kind of 9gag funny ( yeah 9gag eat my soul! hehehe) but when I open it, I was like... silent and can't even say a word. funny? no it's not funny It was,.... I even can find the right words I guess it was mean and disgusting. So there it is a twitter account belong to some guy, and on his twitter he post a pictures, a bunch of pictures of fashion bloggers, and he was making a comment on most of the pictures, with mean and sarcastic joke. Good Lord, why is there such a? .... ah I lost for words. Okay I must admit I'm not a saint and sometimes I have a bad comments about someone else too, but really? like seriously? do you really have to post it in public, and make a mean joke about it? If you ask do he talk about me? well no he didn't. But trust me it hurts me as bad. I know some of the people he mocked, and it's killing me. The worst thing is, people have a tend to follow, they all laughing and many of the retweeting it, so it's like a snowball it's getting bigger and bigger. My question is, when they doing that, aren't there some voice in your head or in your heart? telling that what your doing is wrong, some guilty feeling maybe? Oh God. 

I'm witty, my sisters said I don't even have filter in my mouth. I said what I want to say and regret it later when I know it hurts other people. So most of the time I just being quiet. When someone asked me  do they look good? I'll tell you what's on my mind "yes, you look good in it"or "no and do you want to know why? but I might hurt your feeling if I tell you why, your choice" most of my friends don't want to know why. hehehe.

I'm honest, but I will never ever not in million years posting other people pictures, make a bad comments as if I'm better than them. Well if you are better than them it's still a cruel things to do, but when you are not it's like more like you are stupid and cruel at the same time. On one of his tweet when someone he make a joke about getting mad at him, he said "I'll do this all the time, and bla bla bla" maaan ... really that's your answer? read my lips or my words? just because you doing it a thousand times doesn't mean what your doing is right! for God sake! My sisters said, don't worry about social climber will always be a social climber, they do worst thing to get attention. 

I tweet my concern about it, many of you replied and my trust for humanity is restored, but still kindda feel sick about it. Someone asked why I'm always so sensitive about mockery things? well to be honest because I've been in their shoes, I've got mocked many times just because I'm different. Believe me when they got home and forget about all the things they said to me, I still remembering it clearly just like it was yesterday. No I'm not holding my grudge against them, it's not that. It's the pain that I still feel. Do you know or even consider how it would affect them when you type those words. In 13 years of living I came to this, that for me the most cruel thing to do is when someone is laugh over the suffering of others . Talking bad is always the easiest things to do my friend, but I believe in karma, what comes around goes around, you may watch out. Just like you say you've done it so many times. And if this is if, you done it not to get attention but just for fun of it, then here's my suggestion to you, get a doctor, or shrink because there's clearly something wrong with you, if the doctor said there's nothing wrong with your head then I guess it's simple,  learn some manner, you need it, definitely you lack to it. 

Just like my favorite quote from Anton Ego in Ratatouille movie he said : In many ways, the work of a critic is easy. We risk very little yet enjoy a position over those who offer up their work and their selves to our judgment. We thrive on negative criticism, which is fun to write and to read. But the bitter truth we critics must face, is that in the grand scheme of things, the average piece of junk is probably more meaningful than our criticism designating it so.

Ah I always tired talking about serious things... let back to fun part okay! sorry if I'm being super sensitive but I rather be super sensitive than being heartless. ehem.  

And oh been dying to show you this! a necklaces from antyk butyk super cool right, I love how every piece have this some kind of Indonesia taste in it, J'adore so I was beyond happy when antyk butyk tell me to choose their collection whichever I like and as many as I want, I'm the happiest kid in town or what? and it arrived not long after my birthday! so it's kindda like one of my birthday gift! you should really check their newest collection! I'm drolling already! suppaaa pretty! pair it with a pretty cape from (which I also got as a gift) from I.K.Y.K love love love it! :D pretty right? 

I guess that's all, kisses! ciao bella mia! 

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Don't compromise yourself. It's all you've got - Janis Joplin

Hellooooo! I'm back!!! it's holiday! so I'm back!!! don't bother to ask about my exams, what is done is done, I already do my best so now I can only pray. Ahh! how I miss my blog so much! So how you guys doing? is live being nice to you lately as they are to me? well I hope they do :) Hmm since I've been missing like more than a month I got tons of things to catch up! so be ready for long post! (as always) hehehe.

God knows how I always wish I could make a post about my dad and I also received so many question about my dad and there's quite some number that asked me to post more about my dad (especially his photos) I'm so happy there's so many of you who like my dad, but I'm super sorry, for now it won't be happening. I asked my dad permission like a gazillion times to make a post about him, and he said hell no! in a second! no fun eh? but don't worry I'm still working on it, just wait hehehe. So in a meantime how about I make a post that related to him? hope this would do.

When so many baby out there growing up listening to child song, I was not. But yeah of course I watched Barney's too! Being the smallest in the family makes me influenced by so many kind of song, and different era too. My dad's era, my sister's era. Until now when my sister's friends come they would recognize me as the kid who slept with booklet of slipknot pictures under my bed, and they say back then I always said "knot knot" (as for slipknot) every time I saw the tribal sign, crazy eh? yes I once a slipknot fans and all that when I was three, geez now I feel weird. ( PS : don't google slipknot! you'll have a bad dream) and ohhh I do bang my head when Limp Bizkit music is played! Blame my sisters! Other than those rock music my sisters also introduced me to many great singers and bands. So I do kind of sad that many of my friends don't have a clue about Radiohead, REM, Rialto, Collective Soul and many other singer and band ( if you around my age and have no idea who they are I'll suggest you to google them, no! search them on youtube!) , because their song are brilliant. I've been told "ah you and your old soul".

Talking about my old soul, the person who got to take biggest blame is of course my dad. Hmm, when other baby in the womb maybe listening to classic music by Mozart or Chopin ( I've heard that is the right song a baby in a womb should hear, it's stimulate their brain or something like that) I was not! my mother told me that when I'm in the womb my dad makes me listening to... (drumroll please) Janis Joplin ladies and gentlemen! and that's still goes on after I was born and until now. He said that if heard classic can make me smart then listening to Janis Joplin would make me smart, brave and unique. What a cool excuses.

Not just Janis, I grew up listening to many others of his favorite music by Jimi Hendrix, Rolling Stones, Procol Harum, Uriah Heep, Grand Funk Railroad, Pink Floyd, Joe Cocker, Fleetwood Mac, Emerson Lake & Palmer, Gladys Knight & The Pips, Blacks Sabbath, Temptations, Slade, David Bowie, John Mayall, Barry White, Flora Purim, Inger Gundersen, Emi Fujita, Eva Cassidy, Alison Krauss, Jenet Seidel, Jheena Loodwick, Nnenna Freelon, Holly Cole, Daniel Nahmod, Barbara Mendes and the list is still go on and on and I can do this all night! Don't asked me how the hell I can memorized all those names? you will do to if you already heard their names since probably you can memorize anything ( again, if you have no idea who they are I command you to search them on youtube! I promise you they worth your loading time)

Back to Janis Joplin story, as for my dad, if you don't want at least (I repeat 'at least') 2 hours lectures about story and history of Janis Joplin then don't bother to ask. My old man love this lady too much, he can stop talking about her, dancing ( making a very weird move to be precise) over her song, or just sitting in his big old leather chair while closing deep of his eyes and listening to her song, like he was taken to another place. He even don't allow me listening to her song in my music player, he said Janis Joplin song must be played in the right way and that means only with his high end audio amplifier audiophile with all that strange bulb and everything. He said that this is the real way to listening the real music. I once asked my dad how such a genius have to had a tragic ending and he answer with slightly teary eyes (I swear it was teary!) it just to show us that even genius makes mistake.

My sister told me every time I cried when I was a baby my dad will played Janis Joplin song "cry baby" and suddenly I would stop crying, so it can be said, Janis sang my lullaby (in my opinion it got something to do with me already heard her song since I'm still in the womb, probably her voice is something familiar for me) and for that I can't stop thinking how blessed I am, that I have dad who introduced me to her and her song, her emotion in every each of her song, oh my God the soul and emotion in every of her song in so unbearable. She sang "piece of my heart" like no others and trust me there's no other singer who can sing that song better than her, not in a gazillion years! not even an inch close! Her cracked and rough voice somehow just eat your soul alive, you can feel the soul, the depth of emotion she's put into her song in every piece of your bones. seriously is hard to describe.

You know when you heard a song and it's just like gone deep deep (to deep!) through your heart, like you feel the pain, like you want to cry with her? like your heart is beating faster and suddenly you got goosebumps all over? She done that to me, listen to her "to love somebody" song somehow makes me feel the heartache of loving someone and that's strange since I never falling in love to anybody yet. Oh my God! now I sounds just like my dad! But seriously she's genius. I desperately thinks I was born in wrong era, seriously I think I am.

And speaking of which since I love this lady so much, I would love to make a tribute for her. But since you know I'm suck at singing, I'll done it in something I know, well of course her fashion style. Janis always has this free soul look and style, so this is something I imagine she probably will wear, what you guys think? Do I nailed this hippies look? do I ? do I?

hat : a gift

glasses : a gift

shirt : topshop

outerwear : my sister old blazer

jeans : www.sears.com

boots : promod

eye ball necklaces : shamanistic

random bangles ( f21, mango, etc)

"...to be true to myself, to be the person that was on the inside of me, and not play games. That's what I'm trying to do mostly in the whole world, is to not bullshit myself and not bullshit anybody else." - Janis Joplin

dress : my sister old dress

faux fur vest : Zara kids

blue sweater : Little Nuh

(This is actually one of my favorite top from Little Nuh 2nd collection)

pants : Zara kids

I'm one of those regular weird people

- Janis Joplin

purple shirt : studio

long orange outerwear : DIY stuff

faux fur vest : Zara kids

brown belt : my dad christian dior tie ( yes I'm so dead)

pants : levis

Speaking of which talking about born in wrong era, if it's related to music, yes I consider myself born in wrong time. BUT ( yes it's a big but) related to technology and modern things well not so much. Yes called me a geek, but I can't live without technology ( I always wondering how on earth do people lived when there's no internet and cellphones? tell me how? I just clueless how they survived back then). And yes one of the most important things that I love is cellphone, I just can't live without my cellphone! And I must admit I got all excited when it comes to the new technology and everything. So when I know Nokia is giving me their newest Nokia N9 I'm beyond excited! they even let me have it before it's officially launched! how cool is that? it's like I just got an early birthday gift! super happy! I remember my very first cellphone was Nokia and do you know I still kept it until now. When they offer me the first thing I do is google about it, and I'm in love in an instant with the look. They say that this Nokia N9 market is young generation and stylish, well they done a great job with the design, J'adore! And when I hold and see it alive I love it even more, I just love phone that feels right in your hand, and it does! and I love love love all the application! they have this cool application to download song for free and it's all legal! Ay caramba! and how everything is only swipe away! and the most important thing of course the camera, ehem since they use carl zeiss lens I don't have to say anything anymore, I love how everything is crystal clear like having camera that can you use as a cellphone! So I spending a whole day learning about this Nokia N9, I amaze with the built in GPS and the quality of the sound and video! and the best part from all of it is that I can use it as walking wi fi! how cool is that?! oh the only thing I found missing is that snake game! I'm so good at snake games! Now I want to say thank you sooo much Nokia for the early birthday gift! love it sooo much!

And writing this post just now just reminds me I have a photo of my dad when he was young and since this post related to him, I guess there's no harm putting this old picture of him here. (if someday you found it missing, then that means I take it down because you what, right? hehehe) Hohoho but I hope he don't mind. So here's ladies and gentlemen my dad. I've been told so many times by my dad friends that I do remind them of my dad when he was young, we speak alike, we move alike. Well they don't know we even heard the same music. hehehe. so do we alike?

And by the way I think I have to go to world record, I guess I just break my own record for the longest blogpost ever made, hahahaha. Have a great weekend everybody! Ciao!

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