Thursday, 6 December 2012

“I am definitely going to take a course on time management... just as soon as I can work it into my schedule.”~ Louis. E. Boone

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Holla people! How's your week? I'm quite sure for all the student like moi, it's been super crazy week, it's final exam week! I should study right now, tomorrow is the last day but I got two subject to beat ( yes to beat my friend ) one of them is biology,  got two books to remember and I'm not even go half of one book so I'm officially dead. 

It's so annoying when you have supposed to study everything else looks waaay more entertaining ( If you follow my twitter you possibly know I rambling about this all the time hahaha) even TV commercial looks like Cirque du Soleil, it looks so amazing, oh I'm so dead. Now here I am late at night and suddenly in super mood to make a new post, hahaha super random and crazy. 

Have you realize we just leaving sweet november behind and just saying hi to December, I always love December.... it also means it's almost end of year! and the thing I love about it is that also means new agenda everywhere! hahaha all bookstore is ready to catch your eyes with the cutest agenda they have. I have a soft spot for agenda, hahaha back then you can see me buying more than three agenda just because they are beyond cute ( and yes, none of them survive through the year ). But since last year I do really filled my agenda and can't leave home without it, or else I'll be losing track, it's impossible for me to remember all the crazy schedule, meeting with some people, with doctors, teachers, friends, clients... it's crazy. Oh the thing that I love is that in December many magazine start giving agenda for bonus! that's a brilliant idea isn't? ( and of course it's a plus that you now dont have to buy one, since I'm working and making my own money, I realize I appreciate money more than before, possibly because now I know how hard it is to make money, or yeah you can just call me cheap, I won't mind... hahaha) I love when magazine give you bonus that you can actually use, not just some unimportant thing that will end up in the bottom of somewhere or in the corner all dusty. 

One of magazine who always give bonus that I love is one of the most popular magazine in my country, Gogirl! I remember one of their bonus is a bag with a super cute design! and I use it almost everyday. In my opinion for teenage magazine Go girl! do have the best design for agenda, so I do always waiting for their agenda every year. Ok that and beside Go girl! is in my opinion on of the pioneer for teenage fashion magazine here in Indonesia, they bring a new color with fun and fancy design, well I can say Go girl! it's our Teen Vogue in here. And my predict is not wrong at all, I already hunting for Go girl! since I know it's already out in the bookstore, seriously they always running out and sold out, so you really need to be fast. yes like hunger games. hahaha. The design is soo cute! remind me of instagram, and the other one is a tribal design.. yes instagram and tribal they actually give two agenda as bonus! now I can put schedule on one and doodling with the other one! hahaha the minute I got it I immediately got inspired to make a photo shoot with it hehehe. So here it is!

PS : Yes you ain't gonna see my face in here, I just got back from my dentist and my cheek is still kindda swollen hahaha, sooo next post okay! 




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 Let's Roll XD



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Dress : ZARA
necklace : De Noir 
Clutch : Lanvin
gloves : Marks & Spencer
shoes : Popflats 



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Shirt : GAP
watch : Levis
Pants : ZARA
Belt : Hermes
Shoes : PopFlats

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Dress : MUJI
Bag : Anya Hindmarch
Shoes :  Popflats


 
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Oversize Sweater : TOPMAN
Shirt : MUJI
Pants : ZARA
Bag : Anya Hindmarch
shoes : Popflats


And here's my newest cute agenda from Go Girl, which I already start to fill....

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Ok right it's midnight already and like it or not I should go back to my biology book, or else in the next biology class it won't be frog that they dissect.. i would be ... well you know who... *knock on wood. Wish me luck, pray for me if you kind enough! *kisses! see you on next post!
 

Friday, 23 November 2012

If you want to see the sunshine, you have to weather the storm. ~ Frank Lane

Hello everyone how you've been doing? Good Lord it's freezing out there, in my country ( which is one of tropical country ) it's a non-stop rainy day. I'm not complaining, I love rainy day... there's something romantic and gloomy about it that I love. But turn out my body is disagree with my mind, I get sick easily in this kind of weather . So yeah, I have bed rest a week ago, and still in recovery mode right now.  Ugh I hate being sick. So I hope you all okay and not having fever and flu like I have. Eat proper meal, consume enough vitamin anything to keep you healthy, ok?

I suppose to make a post yesterday ( like I promise in my twitter... ) but turn out I can't, last night the traffic is insane, I got stuck on the road for more than three hours and got home almost midnight. Crazy right? got super tired and I can't barely doing anything, all power left in me is only to clean my self up and throw myself into my heaven made bed. Hahaha... So forgive me for the delay... I know you all can understand. Pretend to cough *Uhuk uhuk uhuk... see I'm still sick... you have to forgive a sick girl, it would be a mean thing not to. Hehehe. 

My God, I just realize something it's November already! it's so close to end of year, it means it's also close to January and it meaaanss.... cooomeee onn you know this oneee..... yes! My birthday!! Ay caramba!! I'll be 14th! It's official! I'm a teenager now! Hahahaha... been checking my checklist and turn out there's nothing significant thing that will change from being 13th, still not allowed to ride, not allowed to go out of town alone ( don't even mention out of country) and many rules still apply just the same... and please please don't ask me about boyfriend thingie, I don't have one and not planing to have until undetermined time. Boys still look yucks for me, no hard feeling boys... but you guys do sweat a lot... But for all the sweet email, love letter, songs and other sweet things you can keep it coming, I need it for my ego. Hahaha just kidding, I do like make a new friends, boys or girls.

Hmm, by the way I don't it's the fever or what, but week ago, I feel super exhausted like I just hit a rock bottom, so many things out of schedule and it frustrating me. I probably bite off more than I can chew. If there's something I well known of it's that I'm a super hard worker. As weird as it sound, I  really do love to work, being under pressure excites me. Trust me, you will found me voluntarily doing jobs that not even my responsibility.  But not last week. I feel so tired. So tired. And I got no one to blame but myself, my dad and my sisters keep reminded me to not beat myself too much and me being me of course so stubborn and convince them that I can handle it. Well apparently I am not. I got sick and tired so easily and going back and forth to hospital is no wonderland. When most of worker in hospital somehow knows your name because you come too often that is the moment I know I have to let go some of my activity outside the school.

And about blogging it's cross my mind to stop it doing it. You probably not know how guilty I always feel, neglected my blog and often not updated it ... not for days, not weeks, but months! All those time I carry my guilty feeling around, trust me most of blogger must have the same kind of feeling, feeling in debt to do a post. The hardest thing for me is that I keep breaking my promise which I can assure you it's so not me. I hate people who breaking promise and I hate it more when I'm the one who doing it. I keep saying " I will update my blog" because at that moment I feel I have the time, but most of the time there's something comes up that I have to take care first, if there's not one thing it's another thing. Again, it's breaking my my heart. I'm so close to saying goodbye, but then I open my blog again, read all the comments, I open my facebook page, reading emails, my twitter and there you all are. Saying nice things to me, I mostly responded it with "ooh stop it youuu.." or "thank youu..." but trust me I want to say something more big and grand than that, because it means that much for me, but I can't find the words. Imagine how I'm not updating for months but still you all so patient with me and waiting for my post.*HUGS! So I think it will be very selfish of me if I just quit and stop like that, I promise myself to keep going, but I hope you can still bare with me. Oh my is someone chopping onions??? because I can't stop my tears!! 

Oh come on lets talk lighter things... fun thing! like fashion, you all like that don't you? Well this soon to be teenager girl *ehem* is start to get boring wearing jeans and thinking to wear a real pants, somehow I think it will look more mature, hahaha. Oh it's a good thing too, this past month I've been doing so many meetings with many people and yeah we talking adult people, yes much more older than me and I can't help not to feel so so young or even feel like a lost kid. The worst thing is when I'm on chairman position in that meeting, explain things asking for numbers and progress they have, while I'm wearing jeans, t-shirt and sneakers. Even worse sometimes I'm still in my uniform. So I'm thinking some of style that still me, still fun but more mature.

So this pants from PICNIC SHOP is I think my match mate, the moment I saw it I know I have to have it. Hohoho... So I start playing with it, mix it up with different style. Girly, boyish, or something in between?  you name it I can style it. Best thing is it's so comfy to wear, maybe because the fabric is light not like jeans. Don't get me wrong, my love to my jeans is unshakeable kind of love, but it's nice to try new things. So after you see my new pants do have any idea to mix it up? let me know, I would love to try it. And hmm I'm thinking to add a new dress on my collection from PICNIC SHOP, can you help me choose? you can go to their website click this ---> PICNIC SHOP WEBSTORE and tell me which dress should I choose, their collection driving me insane, I'm drooling all over it, it's impossible for me to choose myself. Hahaha they also have store in Gandaria city which is so cool I can spent hours there.

So here we go, me and my new pants! Ready to rock! No, I mean ready to work! Hehehehe... 
Kisses and hugs! take care guys!

PS : I'm probably updating blog rarely, but I quite active posted a photos in my instagram ( yes I'm a newbie on instagram ) and by the way for you who follow instagram account @evitanuh I'm sadly announce that wasn't me it's a fake acc, I just make one few weeks ago and my instagram account is @nuhevita . Ok that's all I guess!  kisses! 
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 Turban & Floral Top : EN 
Pants : PICNIC SHOP
Bag : c'est-tout
Watch : Marc Jacobs


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 hat : Zara
Top : EN
glasses : GAP
Pants : PICNIC SHOP
boots : MUJI

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 Turban : EN
white shirt : Burberry
Pants : PICNIC SHOP
outer : tailor made
bag : Christian Dior 
shoes : my sister's
 ( finally come a day where we share same size!  Yeaay me! )

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glasses : Prada
Top : Burberry 
Pants : PICNIC SHOP
watch : rolex
Clutch : it's actually a wrapping package from balletcats, 
it's so cute I made it as a clutch XD
shoes : converse


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Glasses : unbranded 
Pants : PICNIC SHOP
black vest?  : Ichwan Toha
bag : Charles & Keith
shoes : Zara


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 top : Little Nuh
 Pants : PICNIC SHOP
Necklace : Antyk Butyk
bracelet : random : mango, juicy couture, Hermes
Edgar Allan Poe book clutch : EN
Bag : Kate Spade

Friday, 12 October 2012

Life is either a great adventure or nothing. ~ Helen Keller

It's official! My blog is 4 years old! Awesome right?! Who would even think I could last that long? Okay, I know I suppose to say sorry for being a bad blogger and then explain the reason why I neglected my blog for soooo long (like always) but hey, you know me for 4 years now, so I think we just passed all that shall we? Fuhh... Pardon my french, but I guess I have to accept the reality that I am really s*cks at time management. So what I'm trying to say is, oh my where do I start... Thank you so much for being a very great reader, bare with my laziness, my weird language, my messy grammar, my lack of emotion in post and many other freaking bad things about me. But most of all thank you for being there for me. 

I'm 13 years old now, so probably you know I'm beginning to change, my shrink said to me it's part of growing up. I think after 4 years it's time for a little bit serious talk, hehehe. I think it's been hundreds of  times I've been asked in many interviews, "what make you start your blog?" it's the most boring question ever, and I always answer it with the most boring answer I could think of. It's true I do bored at that time, nothing to do so I make a blog. But I know deep down it's never really that the true reason. For some of you who follow through the years might know and keep asking about my mom, well you know my dad and my mom are not together again and I see her walking out the door and I remember saying to myself, this time you won't look her coming back through that door again. The very first reason my dad and sisters decided to take me to my shrink is because how I respond to that event. I do not cry. My sisters keep saying it's okay to cry, you can cry if you want to. I remember like a crystal clear my answer to her, "I will cry if I want to, but I don't feel like it. If anyone should cry it's not me, it's her." I know from the look of my sister she knows something is not right with me. Well maybe she's right. Don't tell me that I'm ungrateful child, and she's my mother no matter what. I know that, more than anyone else. For what is worth I do love her, I look a lot like her. I see her every time I see myself in the mirror and it kills me. My dad keeps telling me to speak to her, call her because he knows that my mother miss me so much, but I'm too mad at that time. Something inside of me keep saying why do you do all the things you do, when you know all your actions can make you lose me, is your love is not big enough for me? But it's an old story, I forgave her a long time ago, I know she loves me and I do wish for her happiness every time I remember her. 

So the simple reason why I started my blog in the first place and post a lot of my pictures, is so that she can see me whenever she want to, see me growing up, still hearing my story and everything she might lose from separated from us. I want her to see that I'm okay and doing just fine. Other than that since she's gone there's like this hole in my heart that I can't seem to get rid of no matter how I try and when people around me busy with their life and I feel so lonely have no friend I start to talk to myself through my blog, not thinking my blog could give so many new friends, caring readers and many other gift I can't thank enough. And about my mom, well turn out she do read my blog, and said she's proud of me. Yes, it's good enough for me.  I know when she called my dad and saying how happy she is looking how grown up I become. But all this reason sure too long to answer that simple "why do you start make your blog?" question and maybe a little bit too personally too. So this is just between me and you, okay. I know I can share with you, we already friends for 4 years. 

See I grew up, other than positive things there's also bad things. I know I'm stubborn like hell and so my dad. But we never argue, I always follow whatever he and my sister thinks is right. But lately we have had some argue, not fight just having a different opinion. Lately it's about my blog, my sister can't really understand some opportunity that I turn down and I refused, just say lately so many local television contact me for interviews, talk show, commercial and other thing and I always said no. But I do not feel like wanting to do it, I know my sister wants it because she think it good for me. But I don't think so. I told my sister let me decide what's best for me, on my own. I have my own reason and asked her to just trust me and my gut. The different thing happens to my dad, this time I get another  invitation from French TV and for this one I'm dying to do it, it's been several times I refuse some big offer from outside Indonesia because my dad said I'm too young, I'm not ready, in the old days I follow his advice. But for this time, I said my opinion that I feel like I'm ready this time. We have our first argue and in the end I follow him, because I think he have all the right reason and he just worry about me. But at that moment in my head I do wish I'm 17 and can go whenever I want , the hell I want. I do dream someday I can have my adventure going away with only 1 bag and travel around the world, and going back with all the priceless wisdom and experience that money can't buy. And that is what inspired me to make this post, it's how I think I traveler look like, there's many travelers out there, they go with different reason and different dream to achieve and I try to think the outfit. 

And oh for my dad, for now I am accepting that I'm still however too young to decide something big, but I do hope there will come a time when my dad give me responsibility just like he gave my sisters to decide what they want with their life. Just like the Frank Sinatra song I want to do everything my way, I do hope when I'm old I can sing this song and mean everything in it, that I did everything my way.  I know I will make mistakes in the process maybe a little or maybe big mistakes, but I want when I'm old looking back, I have nothing to regret. Ugh this song it's been like a soundtrack of my life lately. 

My way - Frank Sinatra

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and every highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way



We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure. There is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open. 
Jawahrlal Nehru

The big question is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure. Joseph Campbell

So here's a traveler set, I got inspired by so many things when I set this outfit, a gipsy, a worker that trying to get out of small town and have a big dream in the big city, even an angel of death that travels to find a clue how he can stop his job, hehehe. And I got this awesome glasses from kak Sonia Eryka  from RIOTS BARBIE and I think it would be cool to try to mix it up with some different style.  Enjoy! 




She's an angel of death who travels around, because she sicks of her job and she hear a story that there's 
a way to quit her job, so she travels around to find it.

Glasses : Riots Barbie 
Necklace : Nefertiti, Shamanistic
gloves : Marks & Spencer
black turtleneck : Zara
pants : EVITANUH
shoes : zara


 

In this look I got inspired by 1984-1985 UK miners strike where a worker go to one place to another to coal miners.

Hat + plaid shirt + pants : ZARA
cashmere cardigan : mango
boots : MUJI ( my currently favorite boots!) 
white jeans jacket : Levis 
bag : Elan - bijoux




 I think I got inspired for this look by reading and looking all photos In the shadow of mountains by Steve MacCurry, it's inspired me a lot, a girl who live in a nomadic way with all her family, travels from one place to another place.

Headscarf : ZARA
outerwear : unbranded
long skirt : EVITANUH
Goggles : Ancestral Artefacts
necklaces + bracelets : Chickhorse Label 
boots : bamboo




 

This is a scientist who travels around to find cures for a disease and hopes he can find a cure for it.

ski jacket : Arc'teryx
glasses : Riots barbie 
jeans : denimbirds ( it's nudie's sisters! super comfy!)
boots : muji


 

This is a merchant, a very sly one that travels to sell things to people with tricks and lies, you better watch out.

Hat : top shop
faux fur coat : zara
pants : from thailand
shoes : kulkith


 

I don't know about this one, I've been mixed up, assassin or a vampire? You decide! Both of them can't stay in one place they have to always move around.

glasses : riots barbie
book clutch : EVITANUH (still on process) 
coat : vintage
pants: Zara
boots : Zara




Let's just say she's a very eccentric kind of person who always looking for something new, because there's no place is good enough for her, therefore she always wonders around trying to find that perfect place.

Faux fur hat : Zara
glasses : riots barbie
necklaces : elan bijoux
scotland skirt : a gift from my auntie :) 






I think I don't have to explain this one, do you often watch movie where's there's an illegal worker with cheap payment? Travel from town to town to make a living, live is hard for them, but they okay with it, as long as they have each other to sing and dance with.

Scarf : ZARA
skirt : evitanuh
shirt : little nuh
outerwear : it's actually a pijama! hehehe
boots : MUJI




Do you ever hear Fast car song by Tracy Chapman? If not you should! This looks inspired by this song, it's a story about young people who have a tough life, with all problems with life, family, economy so she decides to go to make a better life, thinking she have to leave or she will live and die in her old place.  She's doesn't have a big dream or anything she just wants a good life and be someone. This is how I imagine how the character outfit. I'm not kidding when I said my look can inspired from anything including a song. 

Jacket : Esprit
glasses : riots barbie
plaid shirt : forever 21
 gray sweater : zara
pants : denimbirds
boots : MUJI
bag : FCUK


So there it is, again thank you so much, adios amigos!