If the world was perfect, it wouldn't be ~ Yogi Berra

People keep saying the same thing to me ( well not everyone, but many people... ) they said I probably grow older than my age or saying things like.. I must be lost my childhood life. All I want to say is, I can only answer that question with asking them back ... please define "childhood life" to me first. Because I don't really know how childhood really means or suppose to be, so I don't really know do I have it or lost it.

To me I am normal, I go to school like every other kids, I do my homework and hate it just like every other kids ( and always think whoever made the first idea to give student homeworks is making the worst idea. ever! I swear ever!) I playing kites (on certain season), I playing hide and seek, I playing soccer ball ( and quite good at it. ehem.), I have friends, I have enemies, I have to go to bed at 9 pm ( or 10 when my daddy feeling generous), I begging to stay late so I can play with my computer a little bit longer, I play my playstation like crazy and breaks the remotes twice, I later on forget and abandon my playstation when the world welcoming wii and again just like every other kids. I snuggle with my sisters and with my daddy, we play tickle and I always blow the game.I watch cartoons, I'm in love with Shaun the sheep. I play bubblebath until my fingers got wrinkled and my lips turn blue and never gonna finish my bath until someone force me to. so tell do I lost it? my childhood?

When someone email about her concern I asked her back,how you imagine my life exactly? and I began to asked is that how people thinking how my life is? well that's just ain't right. She said she imagine I choose fashion tv more than kids channel, I go to fashion show everyday and not playing with kids my age and other things... Well this may shock you, but I'm nothing like that at all. Yes I love fashion, but is that make me older than my age? I don't know. maybe yes but maybe not. Is it really true loving beautiful clothes makes me older? I don't really think so. All I can say is most people who meet me in real person said the same things, that they never expected me to be this 'normal kid' they thought I'll be this 'cool' kid, well cool maybe something I'm certainly not. I'm really shy but I can't stop talking to people I know. I'm as normal as it can be. well at least for me. If that is true that I grew older than I should, well I can only accept that, nobody's perfect right? and this quote is so true

If God had wanted me otherwise, God would have created me otherwise.
~Johann von Goethe

So like it or not this is me, too mature or not it is me.

If I am not for myself, who will be? ~Pirke Avoth

What makes me different is probably only what excites me, not like my friends beautiful clothes is the one thing that makes blood rushing to my brain, I shade a tears when I see unbelieveable beautiful clothes simply because the talent whoever made it amazed me. It's weird I know, but is that make me older than my age? I don't think so. And I just don't understand why there's people who correcting other people, like being different is somekind of sin, it's not. World wouldn't be a fun place if everyone thinks and acts the same, it would be simply boring. Why people judging others was weird just because they don't think or act like most of people? when we all know nobody's is the same.

I do not need anyone's permission to be my true self. - Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Some said I always look cold in my photos and that makes me look more mature too, well I don't know, to me every piece of clothes have a soul in it, and I just play the character the clothes brought to me, and moreover I don't like faking a smile or I can't faking it is the right word, so if you see me smiling in my photos I guarantee it's not a fake smile just for photos sake. But don't worry in my real life I smile a bit too much, I'm so fun and jolly you know? (only when I get to know you thou... other than that I'm a very shy person) I'll show you how silly and jolly I am, and yes pictures speaks a thousand words so here it is...

red coat : mini boden
white t-shirt : zara kids
pants : max azria
scarf : vintage
tights : gap kids
shoes : converse
hat : gift :)

Photos taken by : Lillebitte Photography
you can check the complete pictures in my facebook page

And oh! my Little Nuh website is still on the making ( so excited!!!) in a meanwhile please follow Little Nuh twitter @Little_nuh I'm gonna tweet about the update and everything related with Little Nuh there

Good Night people!!!