If the world was perfect, it wouldn't be ~ Yogi Berra

People keep saying the same thing to me ( well not everyone, but many people... ) they said I probably grow older than my age or saying things like.. I must be lost my childhood life. All I want to say is, I can only answer that question with asking them back ... please define "childhood life" to me first. Because I don't really know how childhood really means or suppose to be, so I don't really know do I have it or lost it.

To me I am normal, I go to school like every other kids, I do my homework and hate it just like every other kids ( and always think whoever made the first idea to give student homeworks is making the worst idea. ever! I swear ever!) I playing kites (on certain season), I playing hide and seek, I playing soccer ball ( and quite good at it. ehem.), I have friends, I have enemies, I have to go to bed at 9 pm ( or 10 when my daddy feeling generous), I begging to stay late so I can play with my computer a little bit longer, I play my playstation like crazy and breaks the remotes twice, I later on forget and abandon my playstation when the world welcoming wii and again just like every other kids. I snuggle with my sisters and with my daddy, we play tickle and I always blow the game.I watch cartoons, I'm in love with Shaun the sheep. I play bubblebath until my fingers got wrinkled and my lips turn blue and never gonna finish my bath until someone force me to. so tell do I lost it? my childhood?

When someone email about her concern I asked her back,how you imagine my life exactly? and I began to asked is that how people thinking how my life is? well that's just ain't right. She said she imagine I choose fashion tv more than kids channel, I go to fashion show everyday and not playing with kids my age and other things... Well this may shock you, but I'm nothing like that at all. Yes I love fashion, but is that make me older than my age? I don't know. maybe yes but maybe not. Is it really true loving beautiful clothes makes me older? I don't really think so. All I can say is most people who meet me in real person said the same things, that they never expected me to be this 'normal kid' they thought I'll be this 'cool' kid, well cool maybe something I'm certainly not. I'm really shy but I can't stop talking to people I know. I'm as normal as it can be. well at least for me. If that is true that I grew older than I should, well I can only accept that, nobody's perfect right? and this quote is so true

If God had wanted me otherwise, God would have created me otherwise.
~Johann von Goethe

So like it or not this is me, too mature or not it is me.

If I am not for myself, who will be? ~Pirke Avoth

What makes me different is probably only what excites me, not like my friends beautiful clothes is the one thing that makes blood rushing to my brain, I shade a tears when I see unbelieveable beautiful clothes simply because the talent whoever made it amazed me. It's weird I know, but is that make me older than my age? I don't think so. And I just don't understand why there's people who correcting other people, like being different is somekind of sin, it's not. World wouldn't be a fun place if everyone thinks and acts the same, it would be simply boring. Why people judging others was weird just because they don't think or act like most of people? when we all know nobody's is the same.

I do not need anyone's permission to be my true self. - Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Some said I always look cold in my photos and that makes me look more mature too, well I don't know, to me every piece of clothes have a soul in it, and I just play the character the clothes brought to me, and moreover I don't like faking a smile or I can't faking it is the right word, so if you see me smiling in my photos I guarantee it's not a fake smile just for photos sake. But don't worry in my real life I smile a bit too much, I'm so fun and jolly you know? (only when I get to know you thou... other than that I'm a very shy person) I'll show you how silly and jolly I am, and yes pictures speaks a thousand words so here it is...

red coat : mini boden
white t-shirt : zara kids
pants : max azria
scarf : vintage
tights : gap kids
shoes : converse
hat : gift :)

Photos taken by : Lillebitte Photography
you can check the complete pictures in my facebook page

And oh! my Little Nuh website is still on the making ( so excited!!!) in a meanwhile please follow Little Nuh twitter @Little_nuh I'm gonna tweet about the update and everything related with Little Nuh there

Good Night people!!!

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my soul sister

I was always feel blessed because I have two amazing sisters that loves me no matter what, teach me everything I need to know or I should know, bought me nice things even thou I don't ask for it and many other things that makes me feel I am loved. So if many people say I'm a lucky kid I won't say I'm not. I am lucky. Thank you God.

She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child. ~Barbara Alpert


And if you think I couldn't be any luckier than that, you were wrong, because I am. Through my blog I met new people, many new people, we meet personally or only through the wire. And from so many there's soe who some who I make a connection with. They who I envy for their talents. Been many times I was asked who's your inspiration and I answered "I got so many" and I can sure you that they were included in that 'so many' list. I was blessed through my blog I can be friends with these girls who I can proudly called as a sisters, for me they were a sisters too, because they do what my sisters do. They inspired me, teach me something I don't know before each in many different way. Maybe they don't know this, but they were one of the best things that my blog gave me. I got myself new sisters, a soul sisters. what more can I ask?


And I present you my soul sisters, they don't even know I wrote this, so I hope this would supprise them in a happy way. Here we go, I write the list is in no particular order.. lets roll...

Dylan Sada
It's hard to not love her, have been her admirer since like forever. I remember this one day when she sent me message through facebook, I was blown away. Her short message just brighten my mood for a week ehm I guess a month ! She's cool in every possible way, she's a great singer plus songwriter, there's this song from one of tv commercial and I got shiver whenever I heard it, and later on I know she's the one who sing it. crazy. She's one hell of super cool photographer too! you can check some of her work in here did I mention she's a model too? not yet? ok she's a model too! hope one day I can take her picture, geez how can someone have so many talent, ain't the world so unfair? I love her, that's why I'm so speechless when she made a note in her facebook about me, and the title is Little Muse, how on earth is that possible, you're my Muse kak Dylan. Yes you.

Zee Avi
I'm in love with her! period. no explanation needed. Go to her web and you will find out why. You'll be falling in love too, trust me! If God ask me question "if you born again who's voice do you want to exchange with your voice?" I don't even have to think twice I'll asked for her voice! This young lady from Malaysia is bloody talented! I play her song over and over again and never got bored. I somehow addicted to her voice. Through once in a while chit chat on twitter I found out that not only her she has the sweetest voice she also such a sweetheart in person. Can't wait for a day when she will perform in Jakarta!

Upi
I once thought that a cool mother is just a myth, you heard it somewhere but there's no proof that it's really exist, just like a story of moster loch ness, there's like a thousand people who said they saw it, but no one can prove it. But this one cool lady prove me wrong. A cool mom does exist. She one rock and roll mommy! and to put more coolness in her, she works as a director! one hell of a job isn't? she prove that women can be a great director too! But the side of her that I love the most, is her mother side, I often cried when I read her blog, esp. her post about hes son that she called Little Monster, you can feel love beaming in her writing. Rumors has it, I don't have mother figure in my house, so through her blog I know now how mother really feel. Love you kak Ups, keep rocking! It's nice to know you and always love our chit chat on twitter!

Tatiana Romanova
Envy. yes I envy her. Her drawing skill is mad as hell! As you might know I'm quite into beautiful quirky and dark thing and her drawing have it all! In love with her work since the first time I saw it. So when she made a draw of me I'm speechless, love it to death. Always been and always have been a fans of her work, Whenever I open her blog I always ready to be surprised by her new work every single time. And she done a good job of surprising me! Keep suprising me kak! and can't wait for your another drawing of me, hehehehe....

Slanelle
A very beautiful young lady from French, always adore her sweet style. We chat quite often through Twitter and email and she always been such a sweetheart. Her looks is always inspired me, I just love how she mixed and match everything and not being overrated! And oh she's also the fashion editor of www.hypeed.com I know for sure that wasn't an easy job hat's down! Can't wait for a day when I can finally visit french and meet you and other cool ladies from French. such as Andrea and Sandy from Paris Most Wanted! It's already playing in my mind how cool to stroll around town with you guys. That would be one of a dream come true!

Soul sister is :
a) A female who fully understands you, like a sister, but with no blood relations.
b) She is your soulmate, but with no sexual feelings at all.
c) Some one who's soul and yours are so close, its like your sisters.


So there you go, the list of my 5 wonders hope they can inspire you as much as they inspired me. I can assure you that there's so many other people in my list, but too bad it's not enough time in this world to mention them one by one, so I start first with this 5 ladies. Hope in the future I can meet many more my soul sisters and I'm quite sure I will. Next I probably gonna make list of some of boys or man who inspired me as much as this ladies! *kisses to you all!

*all pictures taken from they web or facebook or google, hope they don't mind hehehe...

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LITTLE NUH

Hey I'm back!!! Super sorry for being missing for like hundred of years, it's been an exams month, so it's kindda crazy month for me. But now I'm officially back in the hood and ready to introduce you to my and my cousin's brand! yes I'm talking about LITTLE NUH! yihaaaa!!! For you who already had and even sent me a lot of good luck wishes, ( if you follow my twitter there's no chance you haven't know about this, I tweet this news alot!) what can I say? ough (*wipe a tears) you guys are the best! it means alot! really alot!

Do you know there's always this moment when I doubted myself, I hesitated, feel scared and all of sudden got myself feels so insecured, and whoozzz it's all gone just by reading your tweets, comments and everything! God, it's the best mood booster ever! But honestly no matter how confidence I am, that bad thoughts is somehow find their way to slipped inside my mind. I got scared sometimes and the thing that I fear the most is if somehow I letting you guys down, God I hope that's not happen. It's been my nightmare for several night. Arrghh...

I've lived for 12 years in this world, yes only 12 years old , even most of my dad stuff is way older than me, like his gramophone, his vynils, his old radio, his old bike, and other old things my daddy's have. Thinking about that makes me realize how young I am and how there's so many things I don't know about. And I know about fashion is only like what? 5? 6 ? years ago. So this bad thoughts come often, who the hell am I? just 12 and have nerve to make this project? Who am I kidding here?

But knowing there's so many of you that have faith in me, I began to have faith in myself. And I won't say I have the greatest fashion taste, because I don't , but I do know that I love what I wear, and I trust my guts. I have guts that even thou I'm younger than most of other designer, even my knowledge about fashion is like a dust compare to them, even I know nothing about technical (crazy) sewing things but I trust myself that I can make something good, simply because all I want is to make something nice, something beautiful and something comfy for you to wear. Something that I'm dying to wear too. Because all I want is that thrilled feeling knowing someone out there will wear something that I design, it's make me crazy (in happy way) just to imagine it. Please keep your faith in me, because I desperately need that.

and thank God I'm surely in a very good hand, my partner which is also my cousin ( you can see her collection in this post ) is have a very cool talent and I trust her so very much. So cool, sometimes I feel so bad because beside skecthing design she have to be the one who's working on the hard and frustating work ( production, tehnical sewing things and other thing that I don't even understand... ughh ) hehehe but really in mean time all I can do is designing, and making some sketchs but I'm start learning now ( wish me luck on this... hehehe)

So yeah now I'm trying to convinsing myself that everything is gonna be alright, that my worry is normal for everyone who just start something this big ( it is right?) and have you heard this quote? " A lone amateur built the Ark, while a team of proffesionals built the titanic" What great coincidence my last name is Nuh, and it was a Nuh Ark, cool aight? hehehe. And now like a promise, I'll present you some of Little Nuh design, this definitely not all, there's still a lot more, but you have to check it yourself at The Goods Dept. Store at Plaza Indonesia on 4th floor. So here it is, I hope you like it! *kisses!

And because I've been asked so many time to show my room, to redeem my mistake for being M.I.A ( Missing In Action) last month, I will show you some part of my room, well it's more like my working room aka my sanctuary. But so you know it's not a very special room, my room is just like others room, I try to keep it simple and also I've got everything I need in it.

ugh please mind my sleepy look, and sorry about the focus, I'm using tripod for this photos, so yeah ... the photos are ... ( you finish it ) hehehehe

hehehe some of new hat I recently got, the boater and english hat is sent all over the way from France, merci! :)

got this 5 wonders even thou I haven't got the chance to wear it, but I love it love it love it. thank you!! the shoes is from : Kulkith , Decimal Shoes, Loic Loic , shoeizme, flats for Jade (from left - right)

loving my new bag! from Mooze , it's not easy when they ask me to pick the bag from their website I want it all! but I'm falling in love with this one :)

Annnnd for all the drawing lovers, ilustrators, designers all of you, don't tell me I don't warn you, this picture below will cause you drolling over, hehehe yes I'm quite proud with my drawing tools collection, I open some for you, and the rest you can check it out at my facebook album :) in case your courious, but I already warned you, okay. hehehe...

And oh because there's too many photos, I only out some in here, for the whole photos you can it in my facebook album in here. Ciao friends! see you on next post! *kisses!!! good night! don't let the bug bite!

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