Bring on the wonder

Holla people!!!! whats' up? first thing first, I want to apologize for being a super bad blogger, and have been hiatus for more than a month, hehehe. and hereby I want to say that I accepted all your angry comments, on my facebook, twitter, formspring and email about me being missing more than a month. once again, I'm sorry. I know you'll forgive me right? for the old time sake? hehehe. And if you ask why, well I've got to honest, I've got overwhelmed with this holiday thing. You know, so many things to do but so little time. I'm busy trying new recipes, ( oh you must try my spaghetty bolognaise, my cupcakes with fondant it's sooo nyyuumm!) and I also got drowned on books, you know I don't have many times to read books in school day. And it's one hell of torture for a bookwarm like me.And yeah I go here and there too, but nothing far thou, my sister is working and there's no chance she can take a long day off.

And oh! I watched TV too! hehehe, in school day there's almost no TV time for me, sad eh? And I believe one of my ( new) favorite show is your favorite too! is So you think you can dance! Oh good God, their so awesome!!! wish I can move like that! I don't know if I'm really such a baby or what, but most of the time tears are running down on my cheek and I just can't help it! everytime I saw great performances, my heart goes bum bum bum too. It's so wow how other people talent can amazed you. it's really are holly guacamolly!!!!

The weird thing is most of the times the dance that makes me cry is the slow one, the contemporer one, I found it more captivating. It's weird because I'm never been a ballet girl ( well I was tried back then, and knows in an instant that it's not for me, hehehe) I'm more this hip hop girl. and oh, in my formspring some people asked since I'm taking a hip hop dance class do I have great moves? hahaha the answer is : Hell no!

I'm terrible dancer, even the reason I'm in dancing class at the first place is because my daddy and my sisters always said that I'm look so weird everytime I try to dance. And to put more burden in my tiny shoulder, one of my sister is a B'girl back then, yes a breakdance girl so it would be humiliating for a B'girl to have little sister that cannot move. hahaha. So I try to fix that. Yeah I think I'm far more groove now, and can't wait to join a tap dance class, or flamenco class? (still can't decide).

But one thing I know for sure, dancing world is so hard! I've got bruises all over the place, I even almost break my neck once. And that one moment before the curtain is open is also undescribeable moment, you want to cry, you want to runaway but also you want to knock all the crowds down with your dance, I've been there and seriously the preasure is so high. So my hat goes down to all you great dancer out there, I salute you! ( and please can I borrow some of your talent? pleassseee? hehehe)

And so this post right here is dedicated to you all dancers, this is how I imagine how all dancer look when they off duty. So let's call this set "Dancer off duty"

And to redeem my guilt for being away this whole time, I give you soooo many pictures of moi, hehehe. be ready.

Dance is the song of the body, either of joy or pain.
Martha Graham

All of set using :
black dance clothes : Danskin
black tights : bought it in my dance place

flower headband : happy go lucky
gray cropped cardigan : zar kids
skirt : eldorado ranch
yellow socks : sox gallery
gray boots : zara kids













Oh my! this set is me using a super cool boots! thank you shoeizme!! actually I'm planing to wear it in another post, but I can't wait to show it to you guys! and I thought! hey this outfit is kindda rock if I add my new boots! oh gosh! I lovveee my new clog boots. been eye-ing at their web for that clog boots, but that boots don't have my size. And suddenly I've got an email from Shoeizme, they said that they want to send me shoes and I'm speechless when I receive the package! it's.... yes it's a MY DREAM CLOG BOOTS! and when I email them, they said they made it specially for me, in my size! I'm out of words here. Kisses and hugsss!!! seriously out of words. just when you think you can be more luckier.














Flower necklace : chloris
skirt : my dance class property
red flat shoes : wondershoe
red clog boots : Shoeizme















purple faux fur hat : cascade
necklace : cheezybabe
overcoat : zara kids
skirt : tailor made
shoes : wondershoe






red obi : unbranded
skirt : old navy
shoes : wondershoe











believe me there none leopear were harmed in the making of this bags, hehehe it's faux fo sure

pork pie hat : unbranded
gray leopard coat : zara kids
skirt : GAP
boots : zara kids

beret hat : some boutique
blue cropped cardigans : zara kids
skirt : old navy
shoes : wondershoe
shawl : DC comics

Ah got another thing to say, to free myself from guilty feeling because of the fact that I can't approve more friends in my facebook account ( and for you who add me and not accepted yet, it's really because my facebook is full, so I can't accept more friends, sooo soorry!) so I made this, it's a group page and I guess there's no limit for friends, it's a good thing right? And I promise I will add more of my daily photos there :) so I meet you there! you can add it in by click this : GROUP PAGE

so Happy holiday folks!!! have a blast ! Kisses and hugs!

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just give the devil his due

Hello all, how are you? Gosh! it's been too long since my last post right? No oh, not gonna give you any excuses, my bad.. my bad. Hehehe. So how's life? well, mine is okay. Exams is over, already do my best and let God do the rest. ( ughh, my heart is pounding everytime I'm thinking about the result ) so let's just forget all of the exam thing shall we?

Anyhow, I've been thinking lately, it might be true that time has wings, I can't believe how fast time flies! it's almost two years since my first post, that means we've been friends for almost two years too! It's quite long time right? so I guess we are bestfriend now? and I really want to say thank you for everything from the deepest of my heart. You guys are the best! there's so many times your support and love touched me too deep. It's still amaze me, that from this blog, I can have you all, one of the greatest gift a God could give. you. a friend. my friend! my bestfriend!

Since we were a bestfriend now, and bestfriend do tell, so I'm gonna share something, something that I never tought I would have the guts to tell. So here it is... Me in the old time doesn't have many friends, only a few. And the worst part is , in my old time I was bullied by one of my friend, yes I'm a bully victim, oh I mean I was... and trust me, it's hell. you have no idea how it feels, going to school, with pounding heart, my stomach is ached, always felt I could just throw up. Every single day. yes every single day. Why she done such things to me? I will never know, my teacher said maybe it's because I look weak. I don't know why, but she just always find a way to annoyed me, if it's not one thing it's another. teased me, mocked me. She done it too many times, I get used to it. I felt so numb, I played this phrase in my head over and over again "sticks and stones will break my bones but names will never hurt me" It works. for a few moments thou. because it's really true, the tongue wounds more than the lance.

Until one day I think I had enough, I'm getting sick of this thing. It's the day that I finally realized that she will never ever stop. You like all the people else might want to say, why don't you fight back? Well I tried, she said bad words, I cursed back. but she only get worse, and I stop. what's the point? if to defend myself I have to be like her, I choose to step back. cursing her not only hurt her, it's hurting me too. Maybe it's because I don't raised that way, as simple as that. God, I can't even imagine how my daddy or my sisters would feel if they heard me cursed other people with rage. My daddy always said to me, two wrongs don't make a right, what he want to say is, it's wrong to harm someone just because they have harmed you. So, no sir, no thank you. I'm done. So I go to my dad, and tell him, I asked him take me away from her, place me in place where I don't need to see her face again. and he did.

So here I am now, the happiest kid in town, I have many friends now, and I have to tell you, they all amazing! well don't get jealous, you all are amazing too! don't worry I had enough love to share. hehehe. So yes, I learned that every cloud does have a silver lining , I learn it in a very hard way. I mean, if I don't get bullied, I won't asked my dad to moved me, and I will never meet my true friends that I have now. and it would be a very big lost, don't you think? so yes, I think it's no use to cry over a spilled milk, just see the bright side.

Why am I telling you this? well it's because, not long time ago, I don't know how and why, she contacted me through my formspring ( oough! it reminds me, so sorry for my late answer, I promise I'll try to catch up! ) and she said ( again) a bad words, the funny thing is , I don't even care and she also said that I must still remember her, well if that makes you happy, I do remember you. She also asked why I never answer her question nor approve her friend request on my facebook and in the end she also said that she changed now. Well good for you, but just so you know, I'm so sorry, I will never approve your friend request. And if you ask me why, the reason is, It's not because I'm still mad or anything, It's just I want to keep you out of sight, out of mind. For all of the things you have done to me, I forgive you. I really really do, however I do forgive but I'll never forget. And I'm the kind of person who believe that a leopard can never change it's spots. Sorry.

I have my new life, and I hope you do too, and for our best I think it's better that we stay away from each other. You stay mine, and I'll stay yours.What is past history is history, what is done is finished, what done can't be undone, so please just let bygones be bygones.

fiuhh, long talk right? hehehe but I feel so much better now, thanks to you all! and now all I want to ask is, please promise me, that if you in any chance through the same thing, you will tell your parents, don't hold it to yourself. They know better. Trust me, sometimes it's okay to step back, and just give the devil his due. Promise? I'll take it as a yes!

Just like Howard Beale from old movie, network said
stand up wherever you are, go to the nearest window, and yell as loud as you can,
"I'm mad as hell, and I'm not going to take it anymore!"

so hasta la vista my dear friend! have a very good day okay?! Yay! it's weekend!

kisses and hugs! and oh get ready for a great many pictures of moi ! hehehe

Always thinking, if only school allow me to dress this way, like a hoodlum. I bet theres no one in any chance brave enough to pick a quarrel with me. yeah... If only.....

I don't want to kill everyone... just my enemies
~ Al-Pacino in Goodfather

red bowler hat : from my sister
leather jacket : zara kids
black shirt : zara kids
red apple brooch : mango
necklaces : to many to remember, hehehe
black jeans : tailor made

hope you like my pictures, it's my sister idea to only popped out the red color, she got the idea from a picture in one of clothing store in Bandung, and i think it's kindda cool. this is old pic, just never got the time to edit and upload it :) until now...

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