Saturday 10 March 2012

There's more than meets the eye


Hello people! is March already! it feels just yesterday I'm having my birthday and now is March already?! time does running fast I guess. So how do you do? I hope (like always) life treats you kind as they are to me. So lets start the post! I guess it become my habit to start my post by answering a question. So the most ( I swear this is the most often question given to me) question people asked is "where you get all the inspiration?" and I always answer it with the most boring answer human kind ever made. It was song, movies, magazine or even people pass by that inspired me. Might be boring, but it's the truth. I'm kind a person who cannot live without music, I put my headphones most of the times, when I'm in the car, when I'm drawing, when Im working, when I'm studying, when I'm cleaning my room and when I'm blogging, even in the bathroom I always put my shower radio on. It's funny how one song can take my mind everywhere. So it's true music inspired me so much.

This post for example, for this post I was inspired by one lovely song I love since long time ago. At first I'm in love with this song because of the up beat and happy melody and the catchy refrain, so I started to sing along and when I start singing I found it's funny and weird how this up beat song actually telling story about a child who got abused and the song is like some kid who's telling a story in a song. at that time I think maybe my ears playing tricks with me, maybe I heard it wrong so I google it and found out that it really is music about child abuse and that happy tune was intentional made as a metaphorical denial to make it seem beautiful and still serene while discussing something that terrible and devastating, gosh. It's also as a metaphor for so many abuse victim who deny their abuse. The song was singing by Suzanne Vega called "My name is Luka" or in Italian called "Mi chiamo Luca".  From that simple song I learned that every kids has their own story. Some are like fairytale and some are nightmare. Knowing that I feel blessed and lucky, I might not have a perfect family like all the commercial tv showing off every day but I have too much love given to me, too much sometimes I feel bloated. 

No, I'm not gonna make a post about abused, but about how in every family there's a story. Every head had their own world, their own way of thinking, their own dream. So I'm thinking to make a short story ( been long time since last time I make my own story) but yeah let me warn you, it's not a jolly story, it's a story about a photographer and a twisted sisters. I was also inspired by a movie called "the secret life of bees" where in the that movies lived a sisters with name after a month August, May and June and every of them has different personality. In my story I used a birthstone as my characters name. I always love precious stone name like lazuli, amethyst I find them very beautiful yet mysterious. I'm start rumbling again, okay now I'm stop. So let's start the story. (hope you love reading long story! )

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- This story is happen in very old and small town, It's the town where everybody knows everyone. Most of the building is old and have moss all over you can tell how old the building just by smelling it. The town is well known as a raining town, sun doesn't like to show his shine in this town for unknown reason.  To make this town more gloomy, everyone there seem to love wearing dark colors. You don't see any people wearing red or green in this town. This town is as old and gloomy as the soul go people living there.
Dwayne is a new and young photographer, he and his old camera is wondering around town to town try to finding a job. He take pictures of almost everything, but mostly a family pictures. Dwayne loves taking family pictures for him, nothing can make him as happy as make a happy moment of a family last forever in his photos. Of course the money is good too. So there here is Dwayne finally arrives in that gloomy old town, the moment he step his foot in, he instantly surrounded by bad feeling but this young boy decided to ignore that non sense feeling. He entered an old bar, the moment he's in everyone  stop doing what they do and every eyes on that bar is on him. He nod his head little bit and ordered one glass of water. There was three old man asking sit near him, Dwayne put himself together and introduce himself.

He asked that three old man if they know any family who needs photographer to make a family pictures. They all look at each other with weird expression. "I know one family who looking a photographer, but..." that old man did not finish his sentence, but you can see  fear expression in his face. The other men have same weird expression. Dwayne couldn't figure out why. "May I know where they live?" Dwayne asked politely. This time the other old man answering his question, "you can easily find their castle kid, it's in the top of the hill, you can see it from here... but if I were you I rather not trying..." again this old man like his friend not finishing his sentence. That old man take his  eye to look through the window, Dwayne following to see what that man look, from that window Dwayne can see the castle. Dwayne won't lie he's feeling not good about this, but there's no harm with trying, by look at the castle Dwayne sure he's gonna get a good money from that family, and money is everything he need right now.

That three old man was right, that family is searching for a photographer. The old butler take Dwayne to his Mrs. She looks nice, too thin but nice. She looks happy to see Dwayne knowing his a photographer, "I want you to take pictures of my daughters, I have five daughters. I hope you can work with them, they are not to easy to handle" Dwayne already imagine a little kid running around and screaming but look at the gold coins that madame hands to him Dwayne have no reason to say no.

Dwayne was surprised when he find out it wasn't kid at all, it's a girl, a teenager and a quiet one. She introduced herself with no smile at all. Dwayne later on taking pictures of the girls one by one and start learning their different personality. Dwayne knows much about zodiac and personality so here's how he pictured them one by one.



Saphirre


The butler told Dwayne that Saphirre is the rebel one in the family, she will not be pinned down by anyone or any rules no one can tell her no if she want something, that purple shoes is the living proof, her mother is almost crying asking her to take off the shoes, but as you can see it's failed. From short introduction Dwayne knows how Saphirre clever with words. She's a gemini for sure. 


Carnelian



 

 Dwayne starts to worry the minute Carnelian enter the room, she's so quiet and just like her sister she doesn't smile at all. As a Virgo she exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, she presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. She can tire herself out without even moving! has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. She is pure, her motives are honest and never malicious. 


Amethyst



Amethyst what can you say about amethyst, if her other sister is so quiet already the she is the most weird one. As a pisces as the sign of mysticism, mystery and the spiritual unknown. She lives in two worlds, the real world and the spiritual or mystical world where she interpret what she see into what she want. She do this to avoid all the realities of pain and suffering in the world. Her personality is hard to pin down, it is very mysterious and elusive.  She's molded by her surroundings, her incorporate her experiences and surroundings into themselves. She have extreme compassion and  feel the pain of others. If something is wrong in the world that affects her, it affects her deeply, she take it to heart and feel extreme feelings regarding the matter. When she is happy, she is extremely happy and when she is sad, she is extremely depressed.


Emerald



Finally a smile!  even a small one, but finally a smile! But the butler told Dwayne not to be fooled turn out Emerald is very complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then all her sisters, She needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, she can be irritable and cranky. She have an uneasy, delicate temperament. She have contradictory nature of  gives her temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. She is easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time if she get hurt. 


Lapis Lazuli



All Dwayne can say that Lazuli probably the most humane one, finally a conversation! Dwayne learned that Lazuli is not emotional or moody person, in fact she can be downright emotionally detached but she do get irritable when she got bored. Boredom is her fear and instead of facing it, she will up and leave in search of something more stimulating. She may not an emotional person but she is easily hurt by a careless selfish action, she will be blue but turn it around pretty quickly with her naturally sunny disposition. She don't dwell on hurt because it is a waste of their energy. Yes she's a sagitarius, it explain everything. 

She asked Dwayne who's next, and when Dwayne answered that it will be her oldest sister diamond, Dwayne swore he can see a smirk in her face, and she just say "good luck" and leave the room. 


Diamond





~All the dresses are from Z et S by Zico Halim and Sherry Kandou ~

Yes, diamonds are the hardest substance known on earth, and assigned a hardness of 10 on Mohs hardness scale. You can only cut diamond with diamond, and there only one diamond in this family, so that means, she's the queen in the house. Oh she is the queen! She strongly project her personalities onto others and very self-oriented, but underneath the strong, independent surface may lie insecurity. This is due to her intense drive to succeed  put too much pressure on herself, thus resulting in self-doubt however, the natural optimism and enthusiasm overtakes this and the underlying insecurity may never be known to others.

Dwayne is finish taking pictures all of them, and when she pack his bag. The butler stay beside Dwayne. Dwayne finally asked the butler how old all the girls are. The butler smile weirdly and answer "you'll be shock sir if you know how old they are" confused with not so clear answer Dwayne asked again "Diamond, the oldest , how old is she?" The butler still with weird smile answered "Miss Diamond is hundreds or more, just like her name sir, she last forever" Now Dwayne just want to get out of the place, he cannot stand the weird atmosphere he then asked a where the exit door to the butler, the butler gives a funny look to Dwayne, and said "yes, exit door sir, as if you can come out life of this house... "
 ~ to be continue 

Hahahaha do you want to know is Dwayne comes out that house alive or not? you really have to wait! 


So now I'm sure you all wondering, how amazing all those dresses that I wear right? yes you can call me the one of the luckiest kid on earth, I won't deny it. Those amazing dresses was made by my very own talented friend koko Zico Halim and his friend kak Sherry Kandou, they both collaborated to make this line called Z et S beautiful right? I was in love with every single of them! When I first met koko Zico I know for some reason he was a very talented person, I don't even know that he was designer at that time but somehow I can sense it, and its turn out that I'm right. Will tell more story about him  on my next post ( I'm gonna wear his accessories on my next post! yaay!) So back to the dresses, let me tell you these babies was everywhere from  runway on last Jakarta Fashion week and many fashion magazines and now me as I told you one of the luckiest kid on earth wearing it, hehehe. Well, of course I might not look as cool as those professional model who's wearing it, but not bad right?    Right! hehehe... So thank you Ko Zico and kak Sherry!

Gotta go now! see you on the next post ! hope you enjoy the story! *kisses!


- all the zodiac personality was taken from here 




Sunday 5 February 2012

Mix it up!

Ok I'm officially running out of excuses, I was thinking to say that I've been abducted by aliens for two months and reality strikes! I've already used that one!  tsk such a bad bad blogger! So what happen in two months? Let's try to catch up! hmm since the last post I've made was on November, so that means I haven't say Merry Christmas, Happy new year and Happy Lunar year too! so in this super late post let me say this Merry Christmas guys! and Happy new year too and Happy Lunar year! and now it's your turn to say happy birthday to me! hehehe yes I just turn 13 this year! how time flies right? I was 9 when I'm starting this blog and now I'm 13! But other than age there's nothing else changing I guess, still the same old me ( ouugh! Except I'm getting better at school! Seriously! My teacher said to my dad that I was the living proof of someone who have the will to try and never give up until I satisfied - ehem, of course in good way ) so I started this new year with super big smile, got so many awesome gift for my birthday too! So how's your new year starts ? I wish you all have sweet start too, because I do believe your first mood of the year will set the base for you to go through all the year. But if something bad or thing that not nice happen, don't  worry, just chin up! Clear your mind from the bad thoughts, take a deep breath and smile! And believe in yourself that you're doing just fine, it works, I swear it works! 

So lets start about this post, I was thinking to make this kind of post since long long time ago. When people asked what top must have item in your wardrobe, I will answer with all my heart without hesitation, a NICE JEANS my friend, a nice jeans. Seriously everyone need  at least one good pair of jeans, that look goods on everything else in your wardrobe. Well, it's not easy to find though, it's like searching for soulmate.  But when you get one, it's the best thing!  This is may hard to believe, but I'm not an impulsive buyer, I will only buy something that I think looks perfect on me, no not just good but perfect so then there's no chance I'll be looking some clothes on my closet and said "how on earth? what  was I thinking when I bought this Arrgh ?! " like my sister did.  When you found one, remember to take good care of it. I might be lucky that I have found many of soul mates in pants, but even though I have many but trust me, I remember every each of them. Every time it goes out of dry clean or laundry I'll check it myself.  I also always put my jeans based on colors ( yeah me and my OCD ) it's easier to dress up when everything was put in order, and beside I get so anxious and somehow I feel so guilty if it's not put in the right way.

The fun thing about jeans is that you can mix it any way you want, it goes well with everything. Most of people wear classic color denim of jeans, but not me, well one of my weakness is jeans in color, I collect almost every color, red to green, blue to yellow, man I just can't seem to get enough of them. Of course I have it in classic color, but trust me colorfull jeans is so much fun, I love to mixing it up with everything. When I found out that not many people have the guts to wear jeans in color it keeps me wondering why. I'll show you how fun it is. So here's the post of how I mix it up, ( actually was planning to make only four set or so, but it was too much fun I cannot stop and I ended with this many set and it was stop because my sister who took the picture already begging for me to stop, hehehe sorry sis! ) Let me just warn you< I'm going to break my own record of showing sooo many pictures, hehehe so are you ready to roll?! I know you are!!



glasses : prada,
shirt : burberry ,
 watch : marc jacobs
black and white outerwear : little nuh
pants : zara kids




outerwear : little nuh,
headphone : sennheiser,
neon shirt : a super cute gift from I.K.Y.K  ,
bag : belkin



black jacket : top shop,
 sweater : ballet cats
plaid shirt : zara,
 red pants : sara
bag : marc by marc jacobs




shirt : little nuh,
belt : f21,
watch : paul frank,
bag : LV




outerwear, shirt, bag , hat : zara,
pants : from Thailand,
watch : jeremy scott for swatch







stripe shirt : muji,
pink pants : zara,
 bag : kate spade




white blazer : little nuh
shirt : burberry
necklace : Ellan bijoux 
bag : kate spade




coat, shirt  : muji,
pants : zara,
watch : marc jacobs
bag : kate spade




headphone : urbanears,
shirt : smith
pants : zara







hat : a gift
shirt : burberry
pants : zara
bag : coach




headphone : aerial
shirt : balletcats.




shirt :







shirt : unbranded,
bag : anya hindmarch



jacket : smiths
shirt and pants : zara
watch : levis
bag : charles and keith





yellow jacket : amaterasu
shirt : the balletcats



shirt : art marine
pants : zara
bag anya hind march




outerwear : amaterasu
shirt : GAP
pants : zara
bag : lanvin



outerwear : amaterasu
flower shirt : promod
pants : zara




all zara, except hat



watch : levis, all zara



white cape  another pretty gift from  I.K.Y.K 



plaid shirt : the browns,
bag : kate spade
watch : marc jacobs
hat, sweater, pants : zara



read coat : stradivarius
pants : mango
plaid shirt (inside) : amaterasu


Fiuuuh what a long post right? Well I really hope you got yourself some inspiration from it. I'm having so much fun while mixing it up, I can go on and on and on, you should try too! 

Ought lets come to more serious matter, at first I was hesitate to write this, but this is bugging for weeks. My sister told me to stay the hell out of it, she said if he ain't  bark at you well you don't have to bite. But I can't help it and just be quiet about it. So one day one of my friend texted me and she said, do you already read this? (and then she send me a link) and she told me that I have to open it, because it super funny and she also guarantee that I will crying because of laughing, so yeah I click the link and I expected some kind of 9gag funny ( yeah 9gag eat my soul! hehehe) but when I open it, I was like... silent and can't even say a word. funny? no it's not funny It was,.... I even can find the right words I guess it was mean and disgusting. So there it is a twitter account belong to some guy, and on his twitter he post a pictures, a bunch of pictures of fashion bloggers, and he was making a comment on most of the pictures, with mean and sarcastic joke. Good Lord, why is there such a? .... ah I lost for words. Okay I must admit I'm not a saint and sometimes I have a bad comments about someone else too, but really? like seriously? do you really have to post it in public, and make a mean joke about it? If you ask do he talk about me? well no he didn't. But trust me it hurts me as bad. I know some of the people he mocked, and it's killing me. The worst thing is, people have a tend to follow, they all laughing and many of the retweeting it, so it's like a snowball it's getting bigger and bigger. My question is, when they doing that, aren't there some voice in your head or in your heart? telling that what your doing is wrong, some guilty feeling maybe? Oh God. 

I'm witty, my sisters said I don't even have filter in my mouth. I said what I want to say and regret it later when I know it hurts other people. So most of the time I just being quiet. When someone asked me  do they look good? I'll tell you what's on my mind "yes, you look good in it"or "no and do you want to know why? but I might hurt your feeling if I tell you why, your choice" most of my friends don't want to know why. hehehe.

I'm honest, but I will never ever not in million years posting other people pictures, make a bad comments as if I'm better than them. Well if you are better than them it's still a cruel things to do, but when you are not it's like more like you are stupid and cruel at the same time. On one of his tweet when someone he make a joke about getting mad at him, he said "I'll do this all the time, and bla bla bla" maaan ... really that's your answer? read my lips or my words? just because you doing it a thousand times doesn't mean what your doing is right! for God sake! My sisters said, don't worry about social climber will always be a social climber, they do worst thing to get attention. 

I tweet my concern about it, many of you replied and my trust for humanity is restored, but still kindda feel sick about it. Someone asked why I'm always so sensitive about mockery things? well to be honest because I've been in their shoes, I've got mocked many times just because I'm different. Believe me when they got home and forget about all the things they said to me, I still remembering it clearly just like it was yesterday. No I'm not holding my grudge against them, it's not that. It's the pain that I still feel. Do you know or even consider how it would affect them when you type those words. In 13 years of living I came to this, that for me the most cruel thing to do is when someone is laugh over the suffering of others . Talking bad is always the easiest things to do my friend, but I believe in karma, what comes around goes around, you may watch out. Just like you say you've done it so many times. And if this is if, you done it not to get attention but just for fun of it, then here's my suggestion to you, get a doctor, or shrink because there's clearly something wrong with you, if the doctor said there's nothing wrong with your head then I guess it's simple,  learn some manner, you need it, definitely you lack to it. 

Just like my favorite quote from Anton Ego in Ratatouille movie he said : In many ways, the work of a critic is easy. We risk very little yet enjoy a position over those who offer up their work and their selves to our judgment. We thrive on negative criticism, which is fun to write and to read. But the bitter truth we critics must face, is that in the grand scheme of things, the average piece of junk is probably more meaningful than our criticism designating it so.

Ah I always tired talking about serious things... let back to fun part okay! sorry if I'm being super sensitive but I rather be super sensitive than being heartless. ehem.  

And oh been dying to show you this! a necklaces from antyk butyk super cool right, I love how every piece have this some kind of Indonesia taste in it, J'adore so I was beyond happy when antyk butyk tell me to choose their collection whichever I like and as many as I want, I'm the happiest kid in town or what? and it arrived not long after my birthday! so it's kindda like one of my birthday gift! you should really check their newest collection! I'm drolling already! suppaaa pretty! pair it with a pretty cape from (which I also got as a gift) from I.K.Y.K love love love it! :D pretty right? 





I guess that's all, kisses! ciao bella mia!